Simply Reminded

Im finally getting better at this. :)

Theres not a whole lot going on with me right now, I am just trying to live my life the best that I know how. Unfortuantly I am not feeling well and my ear is hurting badly. So I stayed home tonight instead of going out with the boyfriend. Which isnt bad, except I tend to sit home and think about things that then in turn I start to beat myself up over. AHHHH!!! I wonder everyday if I am making the right choices for myself. I know that I am a bright person, and Im sure that I will do okay with myself.

On a brighter note, I got some really good and relieving news last night that made a dense fog lift away from me. Although I'm still a little stressed about the situation that was causing it, I feel a lot better about it. I guess that everything happens for a reason, and that no matter how much we will for something to happen one way or the other, in the end we really just dont have control over everything in our lives. I can see that there are so many people worse off than me and that I shouldnt 'beat myself up' over every little mistake I make. I should be thankful for the positives in my life, and try to take as much of the bad with the good that I can. I guess sometimes its just better to be reminded.

And speaking of being reminded my boyfriend reminded me of some pretty sweet things today. He just wanted to remind me of how thankful for me he is, and how much I mean to him. All out of the blue. And for most guys thats an accomplishment to do this all on their own, but for my guy, its a HUGE accomplishment. So thanks babe. You made my night in more ways that one.

Simply In Love

Firstly I am a bad blogger. Very neglectful. I appologise. However its time for a catch up.
That guy that I referred to in July's post is now and still my boyfriend. He's amazing. Of course like every couple does we fight, and of course we get mad at each other and had our rough days, but we are going on 6+ months and still going strong. This is a person that I can see having a long happy future with. Unlike a past relationship where I thought I was happy but really see that I was happy at a time and out of habit stayed in what became a miserable and emotionally damaging trial for me. I met my current boyfriend B, and he helped me see that I can still be happy. I can still be me, and be with someone. I can love him and he can love me. He tells me everyday that I saved him, and that Im his angel.
I love to be told these wonderful things. I love that he is thankful to have me, and that Im enough for him. He means alot to me, and I know that I mean alot to him. It just nice to know that I can finally be happy, and hopefully stay that way.