Simply Let Down

I dont understand why when you put all your trust in someone you are always proven wrong. When is it going to be my turn to be able to trust depend and rely on someone. Im tired of being treated so unfairly.
Its like no matter how hard I try, Im always treated the same. I trust no one from here on out. I depend on no one. I rely on no one. I cant help but feel betrayed and hurt. Its sad that there are no decent humanbeings on this earth that are trustworthy and relyable. I am a broken person, that doesnt want to be fixed. I have been this nice bubbly person. But thats not doing me any good any more. I guess its time to going back to being a cynical bitch. Get Ready. No more miss nice J.
I dont really have much else to say other than, I am just simply let down. By everyone.

Simply Refreshed

I do apologise for the neglect. Its been raging hell since I got home from my one week vacation in the mountains. So much has happened and so many feelings are whisping through the air. Its hard to even fathom where to start. I will say this, coming home to my sucky job with my not so great co-workers blows. I over-work myself to death there, and its 5989864% ridiculous. Ive met a new friend. M. Hes a great friend. Not sure that there will ever be more, but wow what a friend. Hes smart, and military. Hes funny, and straight forward. He looks out for me, and understands that looooooooong list of pasts and troubles that I tote around with me on my shoulders. So in addition to the one week vacation, I then turned around and had a one week sabbatical at my moms house. Kind of cutting myself off from any unwanted communication. It was helpful to have a few days to me.
On brighter news, me and my C-S are fine now and I'm glad to have her back. Ive missed her straight forward and quirky advice. Which reminds me C-S night ASAP! I get my out of jail free card for the next 3 days, only to have to turn around and work like 8 straight. Nasty! But I am going to enjoy this time, and take it to refresh my life. Starting with cleaning my shithole room. AHHH. It freaken scares me in here. And if I was so damn tired, I think it would almost be too cluttered to sleep. I'm dealing though.
I don't want to express too much more detail on my life the past two weeks right now, other than it was great to see some of the family and kick our heals up and relax. OOOHHH how I love it. Unitl next time.